Well, my birthday is coming on this sunday.. It's my 18th Birthday. But life wont be the same again.. How I wished that my Wai Po(Mother's Mother) will be alife.. I'm missed her so much.. that hard to express it.. Everytime when I close my eyes to sleep, I will be thinking about her.. Her smiling Face, Her Caring and corcern.. Well, it a new Journey for everyone in this life.. If there is a beginner, it should ended.. I got to be strong..Actually, I weak in Emotion.. I cant acted it but I try to act it coz' If i weak in my emotion, that will make my mum more sad and will think about her mother again... My mum is very close to my wai po.. Every weekend without fail, will go to my aunt house and stay overnite to looked after her, chat with her, cook meal and so on.. While my aunty on Sunday went to church..

My birthday is near very soon.. In fact, it approching this sunday.. I wish that All of my family will recovery for the lost of my wai po.. I wish that God will use me in any form that God want me to be.. I wish that I will grow more spiritually and more understanding in God's Words.. In Fact I got a Dream that become a Leader.. Haha.. I wish that I can forget every hurt, disappointed, anger and bad thing that happen to me that I wont forget for my rest of my life.. No one even know what the bad thing that happen to me.. I just kept it tight in my heart.. I also wish to had a Sony Erission HandPhone where it function a Blue-tooth, Camera and so on.. Well, I like photographying.. Wish that I can take more nice photo and share my interest to everyone that interested.. Im also wish that All my family will be saved. I also wish that I can baspish is this year too.. I also wish that All my friend can be saved in the name of Jesus and when I invited them, they wont turned it down..

I also wish that I can do well in my study so that I can study the Dream that I also wanted to study.. I also wish that I can defer for my nation service so that I can go study first before serving the nation. I also wish that All my friend wont treat me as a rubbish when they need help, look for me when i need their help, they disappear.. Well, I admit that im not good in expressing myself.. My communcation is simple zero. I dunno why.. Sometime, when I go out, I dun face the people outside.. I alway remember this bible verb very well, With God, all things are possible.. For my last wish that I can grow more fatter more stronger so that i wont be looked so weak and i had more stress.. sometime, I discourage easily and dun have confident in myself coz' of my look and sizes..

When the time reach my birthday, I want to three hundred sixty (360) degree change.. More social, more open to people. Well, when I feel sad or something, I dun share with my friend.. I kept it very tight that it goin to break.. Living in this life is a very big challenger.. Maybe living in Singapore is stressful.. that ended up people bully me before.. I really feel very hurt.. How I wish I can go to other world that people wont see me.. All I need is a corcern, Love, treasure the friendship.. Isit hard? Sometime I dun dare to lent money to people as everytime friends lent the money, it wont come back anymore..

Well, for the past 2 years since I went to church, I had changed alot.. I try to be more open to people. chat more with people, and try not to be so quiet that even people dunno I was there with them.. I had many happy memories in the old church building and new church building where it bring me to be happy, sad,struggle in there.. I had make alots of friends in there.. All are great person.. In fact, some of them are my big brother and sister.. Well, I dun have an elder brother and Sister.. In my family, Im the elder son follow by my small brother..

I just wished on that day, everything will be fine and a nice presence day.. Maybe you can help me celebrate my birthday with me? I wanna a happy moment and feel touched by you all Haha.. I asked too much.. I juz dun want to be sad again.. Well, i got to go.. when I back home, I write again. See ya..